"Risen"

Risen Magazine: What do you look for in a friend?
Billy Corgan: That they won't leave; they really won't leave. I can't say that about too many people. If someone could peer into our darkest recess, would they still love us?...

RM: How would you describe God?
BC: Well, I don't think they were kidding around when they talk about infinite and omnipotent and. . .

RM: When did your search begin?
BC: It's always been there. I think you sense a continuity in the universe but you don't know how to define it. In my particular case, I came to the conclusion that there's just too much going on to pretend that there's not some sort of consciousness holding this together. It's not just some weird Martian spore that landed on Earth a hundred million years ago. I think it's interesting; I've read some interviews with quantum physicists who say that when they got down to the sub-atomic level it gets even stranger. We're looking for order; we find divinity.

(excerpt from "Risen" volume 3 issue 4 -- December 2004; Chris Ahrens)

Does Billy Corgan believe Jesus is THE way? I don't know, but one has to appreciate his rawness and honesty. Out of all the "Risen" interviews I've read this is my favorite. I love the quote about friends looking into our darkest recesses and still loving us. I know he was talking about friendship but it makes me think about Godliness.
I'm not sure I could love like that outside of God. No thanks. I don't want that drama. Give me superficial, you can keep your reality.
But I see the Man that walked. . . that loved a leper, a whore, a murderer. Maybe there is something more than a give and take currency of friendship.
I have to remember that I am, as Billy Corgan phrased it, "a pain in the ass." I'm sick of cute friendship-- give me Love, tell me when I'm being a pain in the ass (but maybe with nicer words).