Trusting

"Your cross testifies in grace

Tells of the Father's heart to make a way for us

Now boldly we approach

Not by earthly confidence

It's only by Your blood..."

Aggie Ring

I have finally received my Aggie ring!

After transferring from Texas Tech and jumping through hoops to meet all the requirements at A&M I had enough residency hours to get a ring. I'm excited to feel like an official Aggie and have a visible sign on my finger that the end of school is near. My parents came to celebrate with me and my mom even went to her first yell practice!

Hullabaloo, Caneck! Caneck! Whoop!

7am

7am is the time I will set my alarm to wake up tomorrow. 7am is the time that I will come to know the harsh truth of morning. I won't want to wake up, I'll groan, I'll hit snooze, I'll pity myself... until.... the panic. This is when I realize that I've snoozed for 30 minutes and must rush to finish getting ready.

But then (a couple hours later), I'll find myself worshiping with a group of community-- my family-- my church. And somehow, the torture of waking up early to drive to Montgomery, Texas is worth it.

"Do you know how close two people can feel when the round horizon seems so distant and burns so beautiful?"

I was at It's a Grind reading and had to leave... why? Because there was a elderly couple sitting at a table next to me. The woman was old, frail, and seemed like maybe her age hadn't been as good to her as the man's. He got her situated at the small table for two and went to order for them. The order came back as two frozen drinks with whipped cream and a piece of cake for them to share.

This really helped cement what I had been reading, As For Me & My House, by Walter Wangerin Jr. What is marriage? What is the heart of God for marriage?

"Thanne merely whispers, 'Wally? Wally?' And like Abraham when the Lord had called to him, like Samuel running to Eli in a Shiloh of darkness, my soul responds with the thrilling knowledge, and the whole sentence: Here I am. I touch the woman's shoulder with my own. It is enough. She had nothing to say but my name. I had nothing else to do, but to be."

"For Adam has found another being so much like him that she is, in fact, of him. And finding her, who has he found? Why, himself!"

I'm standing at the precipice of singlehood and marriage. It's the path that I'm on and I'm excited and anxious. Permanence. Will I like it? Will I not?

Quo vadis? "Where are you going?"

Tecum, Domine. "With you, dear Lord."

I yearn to be a godly wife to Colin. To be as close to this holy image of God that I have the opportunity to live out. I will mess up, I'll fail the relationship... but I love Colin and I love God. He is going ahead of me.

I had to drop my engagement ring off to get resized... I can't wait to get that thing back on my finger. I love Colin, I can't wait to be married. To be one, "bone of my bone, flesh of my flesh..."